Friday, November 26, 2010

Thinking...

I was thinking,

I really cannot wait till the 20th of December, I get to see Shane. He finally bought me an engagement ring which of corse is going to be most likely a wedding ring too. We are going to get married next month. Just a court house wedding, but we will be starting to plan for an actual wedding soon too. I'm excited I'll be Mrs. Cheyenne Miller next month and I am nervous and excited and scared and so many different emotions. I don't know how to be a good wife, I'm so scared that I'm going to mess it up because I'm a bad wife. If anyone has any advice for me please let me know I would appreciate it so extremely much. No please don't get butt hurt if you are not invited to this wedding, this is something that nobody really is invited to, Shane and I are going to be having a wedding soon and I will send out invites when things are being planned. So please when it happens and I post on my facebook that I'm married, please don't get all angry at me and flip your lids. Please understand that I am having an actual wedding, just not right at this moment.

But anyways, yeah Shane told me last night that he got me a ring, he told me that he has something special planned too. Now I'm not sure what is going to happen with the something special planned, I also don't know what my ring looks like. That is a good thing it makes for a beautiful surprise. I'm sure whatever he got is going to be amazing and I will love it.

I love Shane's little sister Shannon, she is such a sweetheart, every time she posts something on my facebook, I smile because I think thats soon going to be my new little sister. She calls herself my little sister, and I call myself her big sister. I'm so excited to be getting more family. I worry because I haven't met any of them in person, that when they officially meet me in person that they won't like me. I hope they do, because I already love them all! I know how much all Shane's brothers and sisters mean to him and I am so happy that I'll be able to meet them soon.

So I really should be getting ready to go to sleep, but I am not tired yet, I think it's because I miss Shane, today was a hard day with missing him. I'm probably going to fall asleep cuddling with a pillow, I got to fall asleep with him on Skype last night, but as happy as I get when I can do that, Its nothing compared to falling asleep in his arms. Just the feeling I get when his arms are around me and I'm asleep, him being totally relaxed and me as well, its amazing. Nobody will truly understand that feeling unless you are or have been in love. Its magical.

Well you guys, I thinks its time to try to call my hunny and then its off to bed I have work at 11, so I have to get up at 9 which is technically sleeping in for me seeing as I've been getting up at 6:50 am every morning.

So until next time,
Love,
Cheyenne (soon to be) Miller

Things I'm thankful for

Things that I am thankful for
(Sorry I'm a day late but I was to busy yesterday)


1. My Family- they are amazing, this includes my extended and soon to be added family (Shane's Family). I love them all, they are there for me all the time, no matter what, as much as I may have drama in my family and I complain about them, I will always love them no matter what!


2. My Fiancee Shane- He treats me like a Queen, I love him so extremely much, he's there for me even when I mess up, He is amazing and what I'd do without him I don't even know!


3. My job- I'm thankful for having a job in an economy like this having a job is really difficult.


4. My beliefs- I am thankful for my own beliefs and the freedom to believe in them. 


5. Thanksgiving- To be able to spend time with my family and to be able to share such an amazing dinner with them.


6. And last- I am thankful for everything in my life good and bad.


Until next time,
Love,
Chey 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Jack The Ripper

Today's blog is going to be about Jack the Ripper,

This is because everybody thinks I'm disgusting and has issues because I don't find his crimes disgusting. I'm sorry I don't get grossed out by someone talking about a serial killer who used to butcher his victims and take out the organs. I'm sorry that doesn't repulse me in any way. I mean I know it was wrong and horrible to do, but I do not think it is disgusting. I hate that I can't talk to anyone about what I have learned because it grosses them out. I guess I'm going to vent about this and then talk about Jack the Ripper because I will feel better if I get everything off my chest, then to keep it in.

What I wanted to say before everyone flipped the cuss out on me for talking about it was that, Jack the Ripper's last victim Mary Jane Kelly was butchered like the rest of his victims, he took her organs out as well, however what makes her different was the fact that her heart was missing, and never found. Nobody knows what happened to it, after she was murdered Jack the Ripper disappeared basically into the darkness of London and never was seen or heard from again.

If you can't read that without cringing in fear or disgust, don't tell me that I'm sick for wanting to learn about it, or don't call me disturbed or tell me I have issues. It's nothing close to half the horror films I've seen only this is real life. Don't judge me because of my interests.

Jack the Ripper was one of London's most infamous serial killers. The case is unsolved because it was committed in the late 1800's and nobody could get a real description of him. The of course they didn't have DNA evidence, or any of that cool stuff they have now in days, so mainly they based their cases on material evidence and confessions. Jack the Ripper set the way for Serial killers in more modern times. He was basically a sick role model who people like himself looked up to. Jack the Ripper killed only prostitutes, no children or people he considered innocent, he truly believed that he was ridding the world of the scum, which was the same mind set that Gary Ridgway the Green River murder. He to would kill prostitutes, he however left his bodies near Green River in Washington State, while Jack the Ripper would leave his victims on the dirty London streets.

Thats all I'm going to write for now, I'll post more later when I'm not in such a bad mood, I'm sorry if you read this and was like WTF is this, its horrible. I apologize but oh well I'm not writing my blogs to please you or anyone else. Its just a way I can release my feelings and not be so horrible to everyone around me when I'm in a bad mood.

Until later,
Publish Post
Love,
Cheyenne

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

November 23, 2010

Hello everyone,


Well to start off today was a good day at work for the most part, busy more so. However, Shane made my day fantastic by sending me a really sweet text message which doesn't happened very often, it was unexpected too, which made it so much better. Went to hang out with Rachel today which was okay, then went to Cece's house and ended up leaving to go home to go and eat with my family. Well today I am going to talk about war.


War,
I hate you, but your something thats not going to go away,
-Cheyenne


I feel that there is going to be a war again with the Koreas and we are going to end up getting involved and its going to be a mess.


thats all I have to say about that, I'm so bored that I can't even deal with myself, I'm thinking I'm either going to write or read, I haven't made my decision yet. 


How I wish life was easier, Shane would be home, I could have my perfect wedding, I'd be back in school already, I really wish sometimes that life would be so much easier. Does anyone else wish that?


I am really wanting to cook my easy chicken and pasta dish. It is so good, I should put the recipe up here when I get it, I couldn't tell you it exactly off the top of my head.


I think I'm going to listen to existentialism on prom night by straighlight run....


Sorry I had to leave to eat, 


I feel so lonely sometimes with my family, I feel so left out when my sister gain up on me and my mom and dad talk, it sucks, I really hate it.... But now I'm talking to Shane now and i feel better now. Well all I'm not feeling so good at all, so I'm going to go to bed now.


Until next time,


Love,
Cheyenne

Straylight Run - Existentialism On Prom Night (Video)

This is the song I've been listening to, I love it!

Monday, November 22, 2010

November 22, 2010

Hi everyone!

Well today has been a great day, I had work at 8 to 2 and it went well. Right now I'm watching Intervention which is a good episode. Oh hold on I got to go eat some food..........brb..............

I'm back, gah I'm tired, now I'm watching Family Guy I just got done with doing the dishes and now I'm waiting for Shane to call me so I can talk to him before I go to bed. So I went and saw Harry Potter which was totally amazing, I cant wait till the second part comes out in July. So a new Tyler Perry play is coming out on DVD, I really cant wait, I love Tyler Perry he is amazing. I went to see one of his plays in Houston earlier this year with Olivia, her mom and her mom's friend, it was amazing! 

So right now I have decided that I would really like to get married outside in a park or something, then have the reception, if its a nice day at the same place, or if its cold inside somewhere. Idk I have a bit of time to think about it, Shane and I haven't set a date for the wedding yet, but I really cannot wait till I am Cheyenne Nichole Miller. I am so excited to be marrying such an amazing guy, who treats me like a queen. Even when we argue and are really angry with each other, we both love each other no matter what. He is amazing and I really love him so extremely much that it its insane.

So Thanksgiving is Thursday, I'm really happy that this year is almost over and that Christmas is closer. On Thanksgiving I am going to be writing a blog about all the different things that I am thankful for, it is going to be great please read it! If you are reading my blog from facebook, leave a comment on my post and let me know, I love it when people do that. I know this Blog is basically about nothing, but starting tomorrow I'm going to be hopefully be writing my blogs about something that is more interesting than just me talking about my day. So because of that I am going to end my blog now and just start thinking about what to write about.

Till next time!

Love,

Cheyenne


Sunday, November 21, 2010

My first Blog

Hi everyone!

Well for those who don't know me I'm Cheyenne, I'm 19 years old, and work at Dion's. I love my life, I have a wonderful (yet disfunctual in a way) family who loves me but most of the time doesn't like me. It's all good though cause at the end of the day we all love each other and would do anything for one another. I am engaged to a wonderful man name Shane, he is the macaroni to my cheese, he is my everything. Despite the fact that we may fight from time to time, mainly over stupid things, we love each other with everything. I strongly believe that underneath all that muscle, there is a total romantic in there, but he will never admit to it. I used to have a blog on Myspace, before it became the broken down carnival that nobody visited anymore, I tired to do one on Facebook, but it just didn't work. So I turned to Blogger. I am happy truly happy with life. 

Lately everyone has been asking me what my religion is, well I believe in god, I believe that he is amazing, I believe however that he loves everyone, no matter you race, gender, sexual preference, etc.. He has gotten me through so much. I mean a lot of people look at me and say what has she ever gone through? Well That isn't something I like to talk about, it hurts way to much still. Just know that the things I've gone through, have made me the person I am to day, good and bad.

I love to give advice, its something that I am good at. I help with a lot of my friends relationship problems, and other issues. Even if I have not gone through what they have, I try to give the best advice that I can. My other interests are learning about Serial Killers as you probably have read before, I know way to much about Charles Manson lol. People always look at me funny when I say that, its because they don't quite understand why I'd want to read about something so ghastly. Well I honestly have no clue to why I enjoy reading and researching it, its just something I'm good at.

I try hard in life to enjoy it, even through the hard times that we all go through once in a while. I do like to complain a lot about the stupidest stuff, I am picky about my food and the way I do things, I am a fighter of the things that I believe in, but I will never stop questioning everything, including religion. I love meeting new people, and learning new things. I cannot wait to get married and start a family with the man of my dreams, and I cannot wait to meet his family. I am different from others around me, but I thrive in the fact that I am not the same. If you read this blog and judge me just off of what I have wrote, then maybe you don't deserve to read anymore. But if you really wanted to know the deep iner workings of  Cheyenne Nichole Cavell, then by all means keep reading. Nobody is forcing you too, it is always your choice.

Until next time,
Love,
Cheyenne <3